Posted in ~Poetry A Berna Original~

^^^^SURREALITY^^^^

Bookmarking this spot..this is a Self challenge to attempt to express where I’m at, in the here & now, this is the best word I can use to describe it…Never been here before yet its a feeling SO beautiful; I only wish I could bottle it up to save some for all tomorrows & share it with all of my loved ones, extended family of friends & y’all..Hopefully before  weekends’  end I’ll have penned it..No guarantees on that , for I’ve learned not to rush creativity. Just letting it flow freely..

**Surreality**As defined or re-defined by lil ole me= A state of being in a place ~N~ time in which reality is met full-ON by things I prayed for , dreamt of, wished for!, dared to reach  for  and most certainly worked hard for… A state of constant  resisting pinching myself to check if I’m really awake. A state of dealing even with “crisis” with a brand-new grace-that-isn’t-quite-perfect-but-a-major-improvement-of-the-way-I-used-to-overstress-over-crisis. A state of not being able to complain about a thing! & more often than not. ** Hoping I can  get lost in the translation as I mark this place in time poetically..

^^^^SURREALITY^^^^

 

~~~God brought me out of darkness into rays of sunshine SO  bright I have to blink

And walking shakily/steadily! with quickness of pace further away from the brink

Here I stand

Happy! even sans a man

Who knew?

Exhaling    Inhaling deeply   Taking a moment to catch my breath..

Breathing

Lacing together all the pieces , the lovely remnants & memories of my life

Please don’t dare wake me if I’m traipsing while asleep

I pray! the Lord my soul to keep

Always in His hands

Here I stand

Trying not to get overwhelmed by the overwhelmingness of it all

Refusing to back up /can’t go back/won’t look back/catch me if I ..

Fall

Exhaling     Inhaling deeply   Taking a moment to catch my breath..

Breathing

Perfect  ,ever so perfect, in my complete & utter imperfection

Waiting patiently, sort of… on my very last Love connection

The final step towards the embrace that will hold me for life

Oh! how I yearn to once again be my ‘the 1’s’ coveted wife

He is close, so close I just feeeel it deep down in my bones

So..

Here I stand

Inhaling all that is good /feeling just like I thought it would except..

Better!

Who knew?

Flanked by my beloved parents whose adoring love lifted me UP

Loved all the hurts & pain away

I’m finally having my say

Does life get much better than it is today?

If so..

Please, please don’t wake me if I’m traipsing while asleep

I pray! my soul always my Lord to keep

Not afraid anymore ..there is nothing to fear.. ‘cept living UP to my potential

Still a ways 2 GO

Learning along the way, loving! all in my path. Main lesson? GOD is essential

Here I stand

Smiling even when I feel pain ,knowing, that too will pass

One has to know pain to truly appreciate joy in this life

I swear I can see the light

This time and place seems so surreal

My excitement I can’t hardly conceal

Lusting for life and all that it brings

Most days my heart is full..I just feel like singing!

Out loud

Here I stand

Exhaling    Inhaling deeply   Taking a moment to catch my breath..

Breathing in my surreality~~~

Posted in Lyrical Lovers Poetry Lounge~

******Erotic Word Illusion*****

This is my response to Kedo’s last piece@ “Or close to 20” ..

~~~~Erotic Word Illusion~~~~by Berna *She Said*>

Its just a phonetic Illusion..

Your penned expertise is pushing me to excel beyond my skills’ limitations

All the while my hearts’ beating to the erotic word illusion;causing palpitations

But I digress..yet, I  swear I can smell the scent of your manliness

And

It

Smells

Like

Heaven

 

Flashbacks swirling through my mind of my hands clenching the sheets

Gooood grief I can’t control these mental  images nor my racing heartbeat

Its been far, far!  too long and my body is ready to sing its loveliest song

How ever could having my “bell”  sweetly rung be not right or even wrong?

Close

2

20

Won’t

B

Enough

Times

Rhymes meeting rhymes in place of erotic physical cravings…desire

 

*sigh*

When all I really want to do is take U higher & higher! & higher

To a ecstatic ! place you’ve never ever thought of being before

My silent promise is you’ll never yearn for anything else or more

You won’t be able to keep count of the multiple ways

You’ll lose track of moments, years and certainly days

There

Will

Only

B

Me

One in a million and well worth the wait..the perfect find

If I set my mind to it? My mission will B to make you mine

Just know I only play for keeps..